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We hurt each other even in silent. We don’t need to say the words, our eyes were filled with pain already. Maybe it was love. Maybe it was lust. And maybe what hurt the most was the high expectation. The way we hurt each other just to show how we loved…

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Beberapa hari ini, berkat kakak @miund, gue jadi ketagihan maenan hestek #PecahDiUbud. Kenapa Pecah Di Ubud? Well, sejarahnya adalah ada beberapa orang berkumpul di Ubud, dan ‘pecah’ bareng in heartbreak. 

Here’s some of my tweets with the hashtag. Daripada ilang, gue kumpulin jadi satu blogpost aja. Enjoy. *bagi-bagi tissue* 

We hurt each other even in silent. We don’t need to say the words, our eyes were filled with pain already. #PecahDiUbud

Maybe it was love. Maybe it was lust. And maybe what hurt the most was the high expectation. #PecahDiUbud

The way we hurt each other just to show how we loved each other was tiring, wasn’t it? #PecahDiUbud

Memories fade as time goes by or gone, just like that, with no trace. But we always remember how it hurt. #PecahDiUbud

I wanted to say ‘please stay’ but the words froze in my brain, leave me wondering: what did we do wrong? #PecahDiUbud

I’m falling endlessly. I’m falling hopelessly. You’re not there to catch me. #PecahDiUbud

When you hugged me, it felt like I’ll always be alright. Now that you left, it feels like nothing will ever be okay. #PecahDiUbud

I can never listen to Michael Buble anymore. His Home hurts too much since you’re not the home anymore. #PecahDiUbud

I am never alone. Not when the thoughts of you always haunting me. I am never alone, but I am lonely. #PecahDiUbud

Our love was like the burning cigarette. It didn’t last that long, and filled with poison. I’m addicted to it. #PecahDiUbud

When I said I’m addicted to you, it means I’m addicted to love and the pain it brings. #PecahDiUbud

Even the falling leaf reminds me of us. We are that leaf. Fragile and falling hopelessly, inevitable. #PecahDiUbud

I tried to runaway. But every road and street i ran to, always bring me back to the thought of you. #PecahDiUbud

I travel to forget us. But every city I go, I can only imagine sharing the view with you, while holding your hand. #PecahDiUbud

Every street, every road, every coffee shops remind me of you. I hide inside my heart, and you’re there too. #PecahDiUbud

You know what hurts the most? You’re happier with him than with me. It makes me think I’m not worth a penny. #PecahDiUbud

I hurt you. You hurt me more. Then we said goodbye when all we wanted to say was ‘forgive me’. The ego has landed. #PecahdiUbud

If only the ‘i love you’ is enough, we wouldn’t have to fear the night. Darkness is scary when you’re lonely. #PecahdiUbud

My heart is not broken. It’s no longer there. You took it with you when you left. I am an empty shell. #PecahDiUbud

You don’t need to hate me for what I’ve done. I’m doing it right now.#PecahDiUbud

No, I’m not crying because I miss you so. I’m crying because i secretly hope the tears will wash away the pain. #PecahDiUbud

If i run to the wall and hit my head really hard, will it stop the pain of missing you? #PecahDiUbud

Can we turn back the time? I want to freeze the moment you’re smiling at me. #PecahdiUbud

I was there. You didn’t even care. At least I was there, and I saw your face. And that’s enough. #PecahDiUbud

I don’t mind to be a loser as long as i can call you mine. Can i?#PecahDiUbud

I don’t have the right to kiss you anymore, but you can’t make me not missing you so. #PecahDiUbud

If only i can read your mind, maybe i could make you stay.#PecahDiUbud

We talked about our future together. We did it often. Now you’re talking about the future with someone else. #PecahDiUbud

Before you, love was only a word. And it was lame and cheesy. Now I’m lame and cheesy, and I don’t mind. #PecahDiUbud

Before you, healing a broken heart was as easy as one two three.#PecahDiUbud

We bleed each other dry. We made each other cry. We were two fools in love. How I hope we still are. #PecahDiUbud

I was humming a song and I smiled. It was ‘Somebody That I Used To Know’ by Gotye. That somebody is you. #PecahDiUbud

Why do people keep on saying ‘you’ll find someone better’ when all i want is you? #PecahDiUbud

I watched the sun set the other day, and I remembered when you whispered softly to my ear, that you loved me #PecahDiUbud

You remember how we used to fight when i throw my towel everywhere? I’m doing it again, hoping you’d yell at me.#PecahDiUbud

Why didn’t you bring your love along when you left? Why did you have to leave it here and bleed me dry? #PecahDiUbud

You used to say ‘you and me versus the world, okay?’ Guess what? Now i’m alone against the world. #PecahDiUbud

Growing old together is a fancy idea. We were once dreamt of it. We were once living it. #PecahDiUbud

They want the perfect happy ending. I just want us to be happy, without the ending. #PecahDiUbud

I wish our love is like my finger nails. Whenever we cut them, they will always grow back. #PecahDiUbud

I still have your number on my speed dial. And all I will ever do is staring at it. Just staring. #PecahDiUbud

They said distance sinks the relationship. But we know ours sank because we’re not trying hard enough. #PecahDiUbud

It’s never because the distance. It’s always our egos. #PecahDiUbud

We hold on to things that are no longer there, because we’re not ready to let go. I guess I will never be ready to let you go. #PecahDiUbud

The more i try to get you out of my head, the harder my heart wants you to stay. #PecahDiUbud

Hey, do you remember the smile on my face when you tell your unfunny story? Yea, I miss that smile. #PecahDiUbud

I went to a concert tonight, wanted to be happy for a while. And I remember how we used to sing together. Sad. #PecahDiUbud

We said ‘i love you’ to each other in so many languages. It was fun. The fun’s gone when i replay the memory. #PecahDiUbud

You must be thinking I’m a pathetic loser talking to a picture of you. Wait, you don’t even care, do you? #PecahDiUbud

I’m looking at an empty frame. Suddenly it’s not empty anymore because i see our future if we’re still together. #PecahDiUbud

If only moving on is as easy as singing a love song, your shadow will not haunt me anymore. #PecahDiUbud

This silence is slowly creeping in. Frightening. And i don’t have you laying your head on my shoulder. #PecahDiUbud

I saw you in my sleep. You were smiling right at me. Now I understand what ‘dreams are better than reality’ means.#PecahDiUbud

When I close my eyes, I see us. When i fall asleep, I see you. When i open my eyes, i see pain. #PecahDiUbud

How come I see you everywhere I go, yet you’re nowhere to be found? #PecahDiUbud

The ghost of you won’t even disappear in daylight. What am I supposed to do to get rid of you? #PecahDiUbud

Kereta pukul lima, aku menunggu dari pukul dua. Senyum mereda saat kamu turun bersama dia. #PecahDiUbud

When i saw you holding hands with someone else, i feel nothing. It’s amazing how the emptiness hurt you, right? #PecahdiUbud

You shouldn’t have seen me looking like crap like this. Damn it, you shouldn’t have seen me at all. #PecahDiUbud

They told me time will heal the pain. They were wrong. We just get used to it. We cope with pain. #PecahDiUbud

Ternyata cinta saja tidak cukup. Tak pernah cukup. Karena kita menyerah dan kalah. #PecahDiUbud

People pretend to be okay when they’re not okay to hide the pain away. Sadly, eyes don’t lie. I’m pretending right now. #PecahDiUbud

Kamu menggenapkan hati yang ganjil. #PecahDiUbud

My heart breaks not because you want to leave. It breaks because I want to stay. #PecahDiUbud

I don’t regret our goodbye. I regret our hello. #PecahDiUbud

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Do you realize how much it hurts when all I can do is talking about you and us in past tense? #PecahDiUbud

Dan setelah disatukan, ternyata tweet-tweet di atas membentuk sebuah cerita. Whoa. 

Gue jadi inget waktu gue pertama kali memutuskan untuk membuka warung kelontong. Iya, warung yang jualan beras, telur, terigu, minyak goreng, dan berbagai kebutuhan pokok itu. Saat itu, gue menghabiskan seluruh tabungan gue untuk memodali warung ini. Dan sisa uang yang ada, gue pake untuk kembalian kalo ada yang belanja. Minggu-minggu pertama merupakan ‘masa kegelapan’ dan penuh dengan cobaan. Gue nggak bisa ke mana-mana karena harus jaga warung. Gue harus perhitungan banget karena kalo boros sedikit, pasti akan merugi. Bahkan, saking nggak adanya uang yang tersisa, gue terpaksa tidur di ……. Atas kardus, di kamar yang ada di dalam warung.

Serius, gue tidur di atas kardus selama hampir sebulan. Duitnya abis buat belanja macam-macam, sih. Dari beras sampai rokok. Dari Indomie Goreng sampai Indomie Kari. Dari minyak goreng sampai ke telur. Kebutuhan pribadi seperti kasur, jadinya harus ditunda dulu.  Tentu saja, tidur di atas kardus berpotensi membuat encok. Badan gue hampir tiap pagi sakit. Punggung gue rasanya kayak diinjek. Ditambah lagi, sedikit gatel-gatel karena gue udah terlalu capek untuk membersihkan kardus-kardus itu sebersih-bersihnya. Tapi, demi kemajuan warung, gue bersedia. Biarin sengsara sebentar, yang penting usaha gue bisa maju.

Begitu uang mulai terkumpul, begitu keuntungan yang seratus dua ratus perak mulai terlihat jumlahnya, gue baru berani beli kasur Palembang. Itu lho, kasur warna warni yang tipis. Well, nggak nyaman sih, tidur di kasur Palembang. Tapi yang jelas jauh lebih nyaman ketimbang tidur di atas kardus. Badan gue nggak terlalu sakit lagi. Hehe.. ^^

Bulan-bulan selanjutnya, berkat pelanggan yang makin bertambah, dan berkat tampang imut gue juga *kemudian diludahin*, gue udah bisa beli kasur ‘beneran’! Udah bisa beli lemari kecil untuk menggantung baju gue yang selama ini gue taruh di kardus. Bahkan, bisa beli TV 20 inch. YAY! Well, walaupun barang-barang itu gue beli bukan dengan bayar cash langsung. Tapi dengan cara mencicil tiap hari. Hahaha. Jadi, ada tukang kredit keliling kampung yang menawarkan berbagai macam barang untuk dikredit. Jadilah gue ngambil TV. Setiap harinya, gue harus bayar sekian rupiah selama sekian puluh hari. Ternyata, walaupun lebih mahal dari harga cash (ya menurut ngana?!) gue berhasil melunasi cicilan-cicilan tersebut, tanpa mengambil modal warung. Semuanya murni menggunakan keuntungan dari penjualan dagangan. 

Kalo diingat-ingat lagi, salah satu dagangan gue yang paling laku di warung adalah … Indomie. Nggak mengherankan, sih. Indomie kan emang sahabat semua orang.  Bahkan sampai sekarang pun gue masih sering banget makan Indomie. Dari Indomie Goreng, Indomie Kari Ayam sampai ke Indomie Soto (kadang-kadang).  Induk semang warung gue, yang gue panggil dengan sebutan Mak Haji, sampai bingung sendiri karena gue sering banget makan Indomie. Dan Indomie Goreng buatan beliau mungkin adalah yang terenak sedunia. Pakai kornet yang digoreng kering dengan margarin, pake sawi rebus, telur rebus, dan terkadang, Indomie nya dibungkus dengan telur dadar. Oh, heaven!

So, begitu tau tahun ini adalah ulang tahun ke-40 nya Indomie, gue jadi kepengin nulis sesuatu. Makasih ya, Indomie. Kamuh udah kayak pacar yang selalu setia. Selalu ada kapan saja.  Bahkan, Indomie lebih asik dari pacar karena nggak pernah protes, gak pernah ngomel, dan gak akan selingkuh. *maap ini bukan curcol* xD

Buat yang kuis hunter, klik link ini, deh. Indomie, yang berulang tahun ke empat puluh, mengadakan kontes berhadiah Samsung Galaxy S3.  Caranya gampang pula.

Btw, gue sampai sekarang selalu bersikukuh bahwa makanan nasional Indonesia bukan semur, rendang, sate ayam, atau ayam pop. Makanan nasional Indonesia adalah Indomie. xD #lopelopediudara